My Pledge

I want to take time. Take time for myself. Take time for the things that I love and care about. There is only one life. I want to meditate. Be in the quietness just with myself. I want to eat delicious things that are good for my heart and my body. I want to love with all my heart and over the top. I want to break my heart so many times that is shattered in a million pieces. Take everything in that is around me. I want to take as many walks as possible and watch the beautiful nature. I want to stay up late and sit outside and watch the stars even though the city might be to bright. Life is bright and wonderful. I am bright and wonderful. I enjoy my life and I might not know where my life is going but I know I can trust myself and the way I am heading. I want to take life one day at a time. I want to life in the present and stop dwelling on the past or wishing for the future. I am here now. I am living right this second. Tomorrow is a new day but I will think about that once I wake up. Step by step I live this life. Step by step I enjoy all the incredible things. I want to really feel all the feelings that i have but I do not want to bath in my sadness. I acknowledge it and let it go. I celebrate my happiness and my gratitude. I am thankful for every little thing I experienced in life. It made me who I am today and I am proud of who I am. 

One Million Cells.

Days go by and I am forgetting who I am. Can you even know who you are? Am I? I sometimes think I am lost in this huge unlimited scary and absorbing space. I try so hard to get a hold of anything but there is either nothing or whatever I grab I hold to tight, it breaks. I am a mess. I am one million cells. My cells don’t always agree. Sometimes they tear me apart. They pull and pull in all directions. I can feel myself burst. Sometimes they love me. They keep me warm and make me fuzzy. But I don’t treat them well and I am sorry. I am sorry that I can’t love them and take care of them. I am sorry I sometimes wish they were gone. And I am mad. I am so unbelievably mad because I know that live is wonderful and so worth living. Every second is a wonder and I have everything I could ever wish for. I am not alone even though my skin is made out of bricks. Even though my eyes flow over on a regular basis I do know that this live is worth every second. Every mistake I make makes me grow. And not everything I believe to be a mistake is one. I am one million cells. My cells don’t always agree. Sometimes they tear me apart. Sometimes they love me.